Are you honest with God? Brutally, heart wrenchingly honest? That may sound like an odd question, but I think it’s a necessary one to ask ourselves. I could try to theologically unpack this or give you all of the examples in Scripture when people’s prayers are not all sunshine and rainbows, but that would make this post way too long. Instead, I just want to talk about why I think total honesty and vulnerability is so crucial to our relationship with the Lord.
Secondly, not only does God hear our thoughts and know our minds, but He knows we are not capable of anything good without Him. In Romans 7:18, Paul speaks about the condition of the human heart when he writes, “For nothing good dwells in me, that is in my flesh.” Paul is telling us that at our core, there is nothing good. On our own, we can’t live righteously. Anything good that is in us comes from Christ in us. So, if He knows we can’t do anything good on our own, why would He expect us to come to Him already cleaned up? Why would our prayers be neat and tidy, with a G rating? Jesus says in Matthew 11:28, “Come to me all who are weary and burdened.” I don’t know about you, but when I am weary and burdened I tend to either feel like yelling or like crying. It’s not pretty.
For those of you who are angry at God, or aren’t even sure if you believe He is real, don’t let that keep you from praying. Just be honest and tell Him that. He already knows you think it. Ask Him to help you deal with your anger and regrow your trust. Or ask Him for understanding and to reveal Himself to you. I think you will find Him to be faithful to His Word. I know I always have.
What about you? Do you agree or disagree? Is it difficult for you to share your true thoughts and feelings with God? I’d love to hear what you think!